Its been a while

Salam,

Aaaa.. awkward nya.

Its been a while seen my last posted on this blog. Kadang baca balik post post yang lepas, macam ntah pape je. Hm.. taktau nak start macam mana ni. Too many things happen this year. Yea, terlalu banyak. Since aku masuk alam pekerjaan. Zaman pra dewasa. Terlalu mencabar. Aku rasa kosong dengan kehidupan aku. Aku tak tau nak move on untuk apa. hidup aku makin menyedihkan. Well apa yang aku belajar, lagi banyak kau dapat, lagi kau rasa kosong. tapi lagi banyak kau memberi, the more you feel it. Serious.

Bulan ni bulan paling tamak aku rasa. Aku nak semua benda. Aku memberi sikit je. Ya Allah, perasaan ini aku tak tau nak cakap macam mana. Aku nak kan perhatian, tapi aku tak bagi perhatian langsung. Aku nak kan rezeki lebih, tapi aku menderma kurang. Aku nak semua yang aku nak, tapi aku malas mengadap Tuhan. Aku tak rasa nak memberi. Mungkin ini ujian nya. Bila Allah bagi semua benda, makin lama makin hilang perasaan syukur. dan kau jadi tamak.

Its really been a while sejak aku rasa nak menaip balik.

Okbai.

Outdated post.

its called, new year into a new month and a new named of blog of mine. NAH!

just nak story about the previous year, 2012. haha nampak tak outdated die? takpe la sebab aku tak berkesempatan untuk pos pasal new year. and tahun lepas adalah sangat sangat kurang post nye. never mind.  to begin this post, i would like to preview back my wishlist on 2012 :D
sila kan..

#1 be a better muslimah.
manusia perlu perubahan ke arah kebaikan, kan? :D
no "accident" at subuh time. hehehe

#2 improve communication skills.
thats the important things, doh.
-.-"

#3 save! save! save!
avoid wasted. grrrrrrrr!
target saving account up to 5K. bolehh ker? haha

#4 STOP berhutang!
since sume hutang da settle,
azam tahun ni ; taknak berhutang. #standupstraight!

#5 target for dean list (Degree)
errrr.. insyallah.
aminnnnn~

hmmm, tu top 5 wishlist.

so, side wish.. still targeting ;
 : camera digital. da tak kesah la camera macam mana.
 : at least discover 2 or 3 recipes. kekekeke
 : start menabung balik? :")
 : learn more about creative stuff. i wish too :D
 : belajar bahasa jepunnn! :D

boleh cari link dia sendiri kalau rajin.

 #1, i've tried my best (but never enough) to be a good muslimah. pray for me on this.
#2, my communication skills maybe have a very lease of improvement. 5% kot.
#3, saving~ its a bad idea. a year of the worst. i almost became a shopaholic!
#4, the most successful achievement! i end up 2012 with zero hutang. KOT!
#5, dean list. go die. haha!
#6, I BOUGHT CANON digital camera worth RM300. *smile
#7, recipes? emm nahh.. maybe its puding and roti naik. but dah lupa. err
#8, yahh,, i tend to start a piggy bank on last year, and achieve RM180 at the end of month. *clapclap!
#9, i do quilling paper! thats owwsome! and sewing a bit. *made my own baju kurung and ugly. haha
#10, yeayyy! my nihon-go is only grad B! i dont know.

so, for this year. i've decided to continue the past wishlist that still not achieved yet. and, do better. GOOD LUCK!

ps: more contest to come. insyallah. :P

Recovery!

Alhamdulillah. :)

Hyee bloggg! miss u! its been a while since my blog kena malware detection, and i have no effort to do anything. so, ah haa.. speechless pulak. punca dia i think sebab nuffnang. maybe da berhabuk sangat. da bole buang lah kan. i decided to start back on writing to uuuu blog!

oh, i changed this blog name from numeric 271191.blogspot.com into this sehasblog.blogspot.com. its actually Seha's Blog. so! very much welcome! Aaaa~~

will having some decoration here. SOON!

ps: to be honest, im back here because of blog's contest. muahahahaha!
pss: wah post excited. speaking wehh~

The worst of the beginning.

sebenarnye da banyak kali gile dah happen. tapi, aku je yang macam tak nak lesson learn. dulu time dip, dah happen once. demm. die repeated back in deg. tak tau lah nak cakap camne. tapi yang pastinya, aku yang suke sangat too over confident with myself. maybe. i'll tried to prove many times, and that many times i've failed. oh ape aku merepek ni. i bet they wont trust me anymore, but pretty sure that they still akan nak jaga hati.. hmm.. dengan cara mereka sendiri. ok ok, aku tak tau nak cite macam mana.

aku tau la aku ni takde la cantik gile hot. comel gile sangat. pandai macam genius. genius macam orang yang genius. tapi, aku takde la bodoh macam semut. bangang macam batu. *sorry semut, batu, but #trueStory. ok, admit sangat sangat, aku bersikap poyo kot. ok, takde kot! kire cam berlagak aa. em aku bajet aku tau semua. tapi serius do, kau ngumpat aku, aku ngumpat kau. tapi bile jumpe, kau aku jadi artis. dem dem. salah aku ke?

ya allah, buang la perasan hasad dengki dan bangga diri dalam diri aku ni. bia la orang nak cakap aku noob sekali pun. aku sepatutnya tak patut kesah. sepatutnya aku, tumpang gembira. kan kan? sedar lah seha, diri kau tu kat mana. pandai kat universiti pun, takat universiti tut tut tut, tak keluar berita pun wei. ok over sangat, takde yang nak ambik idola pun wei. hmm, ok lagi over. macam la pandai sangat -.-" tapi.. mungkin bukan bidang aku. bukan bahagian aku. bukan kehebatan aku. just, probably, minat tu 20% into it. mungkin la. hati kan suke berubah ubah. heekk

memang adat manusia, tak suke dipandang rendah. tapi, sape je yang pandang kau rendah? kau tengah, sedang belajar. camon laa.. give your mind chances. learn a new thing. aku selalu pikir aku yang betul, end up, aku jauh terpesong. kalau macam tu, macam mana tu? tapi kan seha, tak salah kita cube. human, they always make mistakes. tak kesah la repeated mistake or new one. just, improve yourself.

semua orang mesti ade kelebihan masing masing. dah ade kelebihan, mesti la ade kelemahan. but takkan la dorang nak tunjuk kelemahan dorang kot. takyah try so hard untuk nak tunjuk kehebatan or kelebihan kau. just bersyukur dengan ape yang kau ade is over than enough. dorang happy dengan life dorang, tak semestinya dorang takde mase bersedih. ujian masing masing tak sama. u dont know what its like to be them. just bersyukur, say alhamdulillah. Allah maha pemurah lagi maha adil right. be strong once more. smile :)

ps: graaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! im in love with myself again.
pss: ini isu sensitif, buat masa ini. memang la kan.
psss: diakui, saya sangat merindui kamu wahai blog. :')
pssss: how to be consistent with you eh? blog.

Frust sikit aa..

monitor AOC idaman hati da jadi milik orang :'(

mungkin salah aku kerana terlalu memandang processor yang tinggi. malangnya, kena tipu :(
damn you si penjual. nipuh! ergh.

emphh, cite tu da lame da. tapi frust die baru nak rase sekarang ar kot. sedih wo. tapi at least, ade moral story die gak ar.. IKUT KATA HATI. well, the reason i've bought this desktop pun sebab saranan orang kut. eh, tapi standard ar nak tanya pendapat. tapi hati tak nak pilih tu, tapi majoriti nak pilih tu, abis tu camne? kalau tak kuat nak terima kata hati, terima je la saranan kawan kawan tu. T.T lepas tu kena tipu, bersabar je la. ade hikmahnye kotttt.

aahh! frust  die takde la negative sangat pun. mungkin frust sebab tak ikut kata hati. hmmm.. nak buat camne. benda da jadi.

ps: positive gak wehh aku ni :D
pss: dohhhhh, serius da lame tak bercerita camni! :O !!!

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In January, everyday is a working day for me.

baaaapakk die.. penat tu penat gak la. sebab tu aku nak resign keje kat KL hujung bulan ni. takde la nak merungut sangat, sebab tu pun choice aku sendiri gak. takde paksaan. cume yang kat KL ni dah macam paksa rela la jugak. nasib keje tak berat sangat. kahkahkah. untuk bulan je.. bulan depan.... LETS PARTY!!! jyeaaahhhhhhhhhhhh! :DD

aku memang da tak sabar nak tunggu 31hb ni wehhhhhh!!

keje macam ye ye, tapi tak kaye kaye. -.-"

ps: rase macam nak jual baju. haha

pss: nak buat contest, tapi nanti nanti lah. ;P

psss: wait wait wait.. Imma hard working right?! kekekeke